Wednesday, May 13, 2009
things can nvr be perfect...
how i wish it can be..
Friday, April 17, 2009
saw a very meaningful n interesting poem when i was at work..
always be the reason of someone's happiness..never just a part of itbe the part of someone's sadness...never the reason for ittoday before u think of saying an unkind wordthink of someone who can't speakbefore u complain abt the taste of ur foodthink of someone who has nothing to eatbefore u complain about ur husband n wifethink of someone who's crying out to god for a companiontoday before u complain abt lifethink of someone who went too early to heavenbefore u complain abt ur children think of someone who desires children, but they're barrenbefore u argue about ur dirty house; someone didn't clean or sweepthink of the people who are living in the streetsand when u are tired and complain abt ur jobthink of the unemployed, the disabled n those who wished they had ur jobbut before u think of pointing the finger or condemning anotherremb tat nt one of us are without sin and we all answer to one makerand when a depressing thought seem to get u downput a smile on ur face n thank God you're alive n still aroundlife is a gift..live it...enjoy it...celebrate it..and fufill it..Friday, April 10, 2009
down on my luck..
first, i lost my weekend part time job... have been working there for so long n....
second, i lost my wallet... it has my SP admission card, debit n atm cards n my i/c !!!! the wallet is gift from jenny they all lah.. n i hav to pay $100 for i/c??!!!
Monday, April 06, 2009
update on my birthday!! 2nd april.. had been busy..
before my birthday, i had some treats, presents from eunice n my aunt alr..haha... on the actual day itself, received many wishes from frens thru msn, msg n facebook.. they gave me the same wish.. lol..
--wish tat i will get a great bf soon.. hehe...
as usual, i reported to work early in the morning.. my good fren who is my colleague bought me a packet of nasi lemak for my breakfast!! it is my fav...
work n work.. suddenly, someone called me!! unknown number. i picked up the call n it was a guy's voice..
guy: "hi, i m jimmy, calling from the student council."
me: " sorry, i think u called the wrong number."
guy: " u are called fufen right?"
me: "ya."
guy: " can u spare some time to do a survey?"
me:" i m working right now..."
guy:" jus a few mins will do."
me:" i m quite busy."
guy:" ok, i will call u back after work?"
me:"ok."
guy: "sure?"
me"yes"
after hanging up the phone, i felt ridiculous. i did not give many ppl my new no. not even those surveyors. how on the earth will the youth council have my hp no?!!
so i tot of nt picking up the call if that hp number shows again..
met jenny, caliling, martono in arcade.. den this time, my hp rang again..i rushed over to another corner.. this time, it was nt a hp no so i picked up the call... it was a guy again..
guy: "so u hav finished ur work?"
me: "yes"
guy: "so u can take our survey now?"
me: "ok."
guy:" how old are u?"
me :" 19 "
guy:" where are u studying now?"
me:" sp"
guy:" do u face any major pressure or stress?"
me:" no" ( to prevent further probing)
guy:" are u sure? dun worry, all info will remain confidential."
me :"yes, dun have."
guy:" hav u heard of the recent cases of the suicide cases in NTU?"
me:"yes."
guy: " do u hav the tendency to commit suicide?"
me :"No"
guy:"ok.. when is ur birthday?
me:" today."
guy:" dun bluff me lah. ytd is april's fool. not today.
me: " yes. today. 2nd april"
guy: " ok, do u like chicken rice or duck rice?"
me:" duck rice."
guy: " with chili or without?"
me: "without"
guy:"ok.. we will give u a voucher of $100 worth for duck rice.."
me: "???!!"
guy: "okok.. dun play alr.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"
damn funny lah.. surprising. did nt expect tat joke..lol
went to pizzahut for dinner.. had a fulfilling meal n martono they all asked the staff there to serve the cake which they had bought for me..
oh god.. they dimmed the lights n played the happy birthday song n we were sitting on the outskirts of the shop... so many ppl turned n looked at US.. i counted the number of candles.. 1 big candle n 10 small ones??!! it should be 9 small ones.. haha.. so jenny took one of it out n i made my wishes.. she wished that i will get married soon?? lol. i wish she will get married soon. i bet she will get married earlier than me.
it was a wonderful day. thanks guys.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Never gonna leave ur side- Daniel Bedingfield
I feel like a song without the words, a man without a soul, a bird without its wings, a heart without a home.
I feel like a knight without a sword, a sky without the sun, cause you are the one.
I feel like a ship beneath the waves, a child who's lost its way, a door without a key, a face without a name.
I feel like a breath without the air, and everyday's the same, since you've gone away.
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning.
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face.
There are no words that could describe how I miss you;
I miss you, everyday. Yeah
And I'm never gonna leave your side.
And I'm never gonna leave your side, again.
still holding on, girl, I won't let you go,
Cause when I'm lying in your arms I know I'm home.
They tell me that a man can lose his mind / living in the pain.
Recallin' times gone by, I'm crying in the rain.
You know I've wasted half the time and I'm on my knees again.
'Til you come to me. Yeah.
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning.
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face.
There are no words that could describe how I miss you.
And I miss you, everyday. Yeah.
And I'm never gonna leave your side.
And I'm never gonna leave your side, again.
Still holding on, girl, I won't let you go.
Lay my head against your heart, I know I'm home.
I'm never gonna leave your side.
And I'm never gonna leave your side, again.
Still holding on, girl, I won't let you go.
Cause when I'm lying in your arms I know I'm home.
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hav been working for almost 4 weeks of attachment.. my eyes hav to stare the computer for the whole day... can feel tat my eyeballs are goin to pop out soon... hav neck aches due to the craning of my neck..
nxt week is my birthday .. no holiday for me.. sigh.. wonder if he will remb it.. i dun think he will.. 1 yr past like a breeze..
Monday, March 16, 2009
i really dun like my stpid attachment.. feel like so idiotic.. sitting the whole day, n making calls, finding old invoices n being criticized for asking the payments of 2007 in 2009...
somehow, i feel tat my life is in the low "tide" .. too much work, prob, stress, irritating stuff getting on my nerves...
Friday, March 13, 2009
hav survived after a continuance of working for 2 weeks after exams... there are still 6 more weeks to go... sigh..
working environment is ok.. but the work sucks.. have to call customers n ask them to pay for money owed in 2006 n 2007. n i ended up being scolded for having a poor system cos they had alr paid or scolded me on why we asked them for payments for 2006 n 2007 instead of calling them up during those yrs.. or scolded me why i nvr check the PO number before approaching them..
those reference numbers in the system is nt the same as theirs, so i had to search in so many files for the invoices n get the customer's PO number in 2006, 2007 n 2008 files.. how great... search one by one..
WAD A MEANINGLESS JOB. i m like a "higher class" of loan shark..
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
EXAMS is a torture!!!!
what i can't do during exams period.. it is nt just during exams period... but weeks before tat:
1. cannot watch tv for long..
2. cannot go shopping with no guilt
3. cannot go places i wan to go
4. cannot work
5. cannot go out---mum will nag
6.cannot do alot of things...
nvr had enough n good sleep for abt 1 mth.. hope i can hav a good sleep bah..
but i feel really tensed up..
becos fri, i will finished my exams... den sat n sun i hav to work... mon, START OF ATTACHMENT!!!!!!
work 7 days non stop for 2 mths!!!! so i only left the time at night... urgh... nvm... just 2 mths..
MY HOLIDAYS ARE GONE!!!
hope i hav a wonderful birthday this yr.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
i think i m over-stress cox i m too slack..
i m stress till rashes appear on my forehead, which looks like pimples n one small weird thing grow near my inner eyelids. i m too stress n too heaty le...
not much time towards my exams le... sigh.. hav to endure for another 3 weeks before my misery is over..
wish me luck...
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Valentines' day is coming!!!!
Friday, February 06, 2009
i finally noe the feeling of being totally disappointed in a person... heartbroken, disappointed n how much it hurts.
this time, hurt till i m determined to remove it from my life. once n for all.
Monday, February 02, 2009
"Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life."
this sentence makes sense, doesn't it?
Friday, January 30, 2009
my blog has been dead for awhile.. feel abit sian to blog le.
today, i saw sth quite touching on my way out.. there was a very young boy who picked his sister from sch. this boy is about the age of 8 or 9, very small sized riding on a rather big bicycle.. his sister was almost the same size as him n i was touched about wad i saw..
it was drizzling during tat time. the boy was actually bending down n trying to cover his sister from the rain using his small body while cycling. he also carried the bag for her.
somehow, i wish i had an elder bro to take care of me.. i think i will be a very very xing fu gal..
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
hav been getting average results n today, the first time, i feel quite confident of doin well this time. i feel great...
my resolution for this yr:
-to be a better person
-learn to forgive n forget
-learn to let go of the past
-to treasure myself more
-to treasure my frens more
-to improve myself.
-to grow more mature
-to noe how to compromise others more
Saturday, January 10, 2009
ytd, there was this person who added me on msn. i dun remb giving my msn to anyone else. weird.. anyway, i jus added him.
he tok to me jus now! confirm is a "he". he said hi to me n give a nudge. so i said hi back n ask him who he is. u noe wad he replied?? he said"fine, thanks. u?"
???
i replied" i mean who are u. not how are u." i tink he purposely avoided my question. n asked if i hav cam. crazy. i dun hav time to entertain him. so i jus deleted n block him. waste my time.
Friday, January 09, 2009
can u believe it.. i was thinking of cooking yam rice n in the end, it ended up uncooked.. yucks...
i fried all those ingredients n i was ready to mix it with the half cooked rice.. when i opened up the rice cooker... SHOCK..
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the rice is like uncooked.. too little water... how am i suppose to mix the ingredients with the rice???!!
anyway, i tot i can solve the prob by pouring water into it n mix everything inside.
the rice cooker signaled tat the rice is done. when i opened it, it is like the same state as what it is used to be..
i was desperate.. totally. how am i goin to eat all those rice?? it is like uncooked rice soaking in water... yucks..
so i decided to cook YAM PORRIDGE. at least, we can eat it as our dinner n saved it for tmr?? i think it is enough for us to eat for many meals. hahax. poor them.. i m referring to my poor bro n mum who will eat up all those things i hav cooked as long as edible..lolx..
btw, i m happy tat andrew, jenny n her mr pao like my curry!!!=) they waited for abt 1 yr... hahax.. pasieh.. sometimes timing is not right or i m jus too busy or no mood, etc...
i realised tat our audit teacher written weird descriptions on her attendance sheet to remb our names. haha.. mine was brunette???? cox of my hair colour?? my hair is black now. very black. my frens said black hair suits me better..
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
after so long, there are still ppl asking me if i m still with him... i am sick of answering tat question. i dunno how many times i got to ans tat n i m sure in future, there will be a few who will ask me again. i hate him so dun tok abt him anymore.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
this week will be really busy.. i hav exams nxt week so i hav to study.. i hav to do tutorials later..driving test on wed, MC gathering, housekeeping. packed.
i jus got back my Information System's results. i cannot believe it. i fail but at least nt tat bad. hahax.. i expect to get 20/100.. but i did nt.. hehex. if i noe how to do the formula for the first part, i can get A for sure. that question alone is 40 marks n i left it blank.
Friday, January 02, 2009
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
Thursday, January 01, 2009
[Beyonce]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such trouble times
And every child that reaches out
For someone to hold
For one moment
They become my own
And how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone
And I believe that in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering
Then we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up for life
Stand up
And here me sing
Stand up
For love
[Kelly]
Im inspired
And hope
For each and everyday
That's how I know that things are going to change
So how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone
And I believe that in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up for life
Stand up
For love
[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up man!
And the rest will follow
From the forgotten
And From the Unloved
Im gonna sing this song,
And I believe
That in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up
for life
stand up
and sing
Stand up
For love
a new yr, a new beginning, a fresh start... hope it will be a great 2009 for everyone.
ok... update on our countdown..
at first, we agreed to meet at tiong bahru to hav our dinner before our countdown, but morph pangseh us at the very last min so poor skye had to come all the way from tiong bahru n met us at cineleisure..
had our lunch, was chatting happily n decided to go for arcade... we went to marina for arcade...n i simply love the aeroplane 's shooting.. damn exciting... we played car racing n i manage to come first.. who said i m lousy at car ah, eunice? but i admit tat i really dunno how to play street fighter.. i used to be rather good at it when i was young but now, i cannot...
nearing to count down, went to 7 eleven to buy vodka for celebration for the end of 2008. 7 eleven was totally packed!! n we had to queue outside to enter into it.. well, skye n i had vodka while eunice had coffee... i was quite thirsty so i gulp part of the vodka immediately..lolx.. skye n eunice worried tat i may get drunk.. ayiah.. i dun get drunk so easily lah.. it is just 4%.
while deciding where to watch the fireworks, we realised tat there was a bridge near marina bay which we may hav a great view of the fireworks... managed to walk our way up.. but as time goes up, more ppl came up n kept squeezing their way thru.. n there were this grp of teenagers which consist of one gal n 2 guys.. they are freaking noisy n damn sarcastic... made noise all the time.. when ppl squeeze thru, they will exclaimed"PAIN..PAIN!!" when ppl were taking videos or photos of the fireworks or the scene, the guys will say"whoa.. video video.. faster take video.. hands not tired meh.. " cannot stand them.. the gal leh will jus grin from ear to ear n like so smug.. anyway, i jus turned around n glared at them. i really felt like scolding them lah. skye stopped me n asked me not to care abt them.
the fireworks were really beautiful..
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
u guys noe wad kind of fruit u need to spend a LONG time to finish cutting it??
it is PINEAPPLE..
it is really hard to cut pineapple... i cut till my hands ached n it took me abt half an hr to finish it.. n the pineapple is in a sorry state..
the shape is deformed n i think i squeezed out most of the juice.... my bro was suggesting to hav it as fruit but i think it is nt a good idea.. by the look of it, u won't dare to eat it.. hahaha
so i whipped a dish... pineapple with pork??!! i hav no idea where i learn tat dish from but tat is what i hav in my fridge so just try my luck... i told my bro tat he will nvr had such a dish anywhere..lolx.. cox this is my recipe..
anyway, he said it was not bad!!=p
back to sch for the first week.. i can only say oh no... i m goin to hav exams in 2 exams in 2 weeks time, another 2 in 4 weeks time from now.. another dunno how many exams in 5 weeks time from now????????!!!!!!!
EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS..
not only tat.. n i hav to spend 6 weeks of my holiday doing 8 weeks attachment... so it sort of eat up my 2 weeks of sch of yr 3..
Monday, December 29, 2008
y am i always saying n doing things tat i will regret eventually.. y did i told him all those? y did i jus pour my feelings to him...
damn me lah.. i feel like slapping myself. wad the hell m i doing... y m i always doing things without thinking.. can i jus disappear n leave this place??
i really dun feel like working now... it is damn bored... i no longer hav someone who listened to me while i complained.. suddenly, i feel tat working is another tough thing when i used to enjoy it cox i hav frens to crap to, can earn money n slack my way round.. but now, it is totally different, i cannot do the same..
i sort of get irritated by the people there.. a guy who will always ask me abt bf n asking me to get flings. i hav to ans the same question almost every week. i sebeh irritated n i dunno how many times i got to repeat myself. another guy leh who will tok sick things n try to eat my dou fu... n toking abt nonsense which i dun give a damn. another one who always crack lame jokes n boast which sometimes jus worsen my mood. i no longer find anything to look forward to when i went to work. n last week, i hav been scolded for the very first time.
feel so alone lah.. no longer can hav lunch with jenny n cailing, no longer play around n joke around. no more heart to heart talk. suddenly, i feel so alone.
ever since young, no matter what difficulties i met, how unhappy i was, how sad i've been.... i deal it alone.. but y this time, i can't.. i m no longer the strong girl i used to be. issit cox i've started to rely on ppl unintentionally.. or is it just this yr is so hard to endure thru.
pls let 2009 be a better yr.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
hohoho.. back from our celebration...
i cannot believe i m so dumb anyway.. supposed to go vivo to visit jenny n cailing.. i tot harbour front is at the end of green line.. how smart ah.. so i took all the way till kallang n jenny asked me where i was..
i told her kallang.. n she asked me how come i m in kallang... so i replied her cox i m taking mrt mah.. i found it was weird for her to ask me tat.. den i started to recall... OH DEAR!!! i had to change at outram, not the end of green line..
anyway, i ended up in paya lebar.. yea.. went back to the same place i went ytd.. den i took the train back to outram... how great.. i was late for abt 40-45 mins....
had my dinner at KFC.. den set off to mount faber.. i tot we can take cable car up to mount faber.. but who noes, we had to climb up there!!!!! N i was wearing heels n dress loh.. wear nice nice, got to climb up that rocky staircase.. n there were no light around n the stairs were full of rocks n humps.. but amazingly, we climbed up without resting.. thanks to the training i hav everyday.. climbing up n down the stairs in my house n from home to mrt.. thus, i still hav the stamina to complete such tasks.. hehex..
we saw the fake snow n the lightings were quite beautiful.. uploaded some photos to friendster n facebook alr.. hahax..
we saw this very very adorable couple there.. the gal looked so cute n the guy really dotes on her.. lolx.. super super cute couple.. i think i sort of accidentally took their pic=p.... can see they are so happy together.. the gal was wearing a reindeer hair band n the guy was wearing a santa clause hat.. anyway, both of them look so cute n compatible together...
we had to sit cable car back to vivo.. i freaked out lah n i kept on screaming n closing my eyes n cover my ears.. seriously, cable car is more scary than flyer loh.. cable car will shake beneath u when u move whereas flyer don't... jenny n cailing knew i was frightened n they PURPOSELY move abt in the cable to take photos.. n the cable car shook.. n my heart was in my mouth.. oh god.. scary lah.. when we took photos, i sort of forced my smile.... i was really scared..
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
mERRy chRISTmas!!!
i m goin to celebrate it with jenny n cailing... my 2 musketeers.. sigh.. they will not be working at imm anymore.. i will be really lonely.. got so used to hav dinner together, eat snake, chat n go home with them.. ayio.. urgh...
we will be goin to mount faber to watch snow.. yea.. hope it will be nice..
i hope the presents fit them.. hohoho. spent a long time walking rounds n rounds, searching for the right gift..
A HUNT for...
ah KUA... and feast at WAFFLE FACTORY
eunice and i went to waffle factory to eat... there was a recommendation for it a few weeks ago on channel u so jus sort of motivate me for getting a treat for myself.
as today is christmas eve, there will be additional charge of $2.. cox too many ppl will be flooding down to hav some treats if it is cheap..
after trying to figure out whether it is more worth it to eat buffet or jus order dish by dish... calculate n calculate.. we decided to order dish by dish as it is cheaper this way n we are not big eaters...
we ate 4 diff flavours... durian (NOT BAD), pink choc (erm..ok), chedar cheese (NICE), apple cinnamon (no...)
after our meal.. we set off to changi village for a hunt.. but the weather sucks.. it is raining... so freaking cold n wet.. the ah kua will not be walking around in the rain right.. but still decide to try our luck by walking around n left us disappointed....
decided to hav some nasi lemak since it is fruitless... n i sort of wondering which car park would the ah kua emerged.. so i called lily since she is quite familiar with the east side than i do.. she dunno abt it n asked me to carry on with my hunt n i bound to find them... so after i hung up.... GUESS WAD??!!!
3 AH KUA ARE HAVING THEIR dinner.. confirm is ah kua loh.. by their way they behave.. oh god.. they look so OLD, full of wrinkles n not pretty at all... quite disappointing.. cox i wan to see pretty ones.... seriously, if the ah kua is pretty, i would not hav known tat he is am ah kua right... but at least i saw it..=p
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Santa, can u hear me?
Last night I took a walk in the snow.
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love.
Santa can you hear me
I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it off
It just said this
I know exactly what I want this year.
Santa can you hear me.
I want my baby (baby, yeah)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all my own in a big red bow
Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.
oohhh ohh yeah
Christmas Eve I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong for taking a peek?
Cause I heard that your coming to town
Santa can you hear me? (yea yeah)
Really hope that your on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Ohh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me
I want my baby (baby)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me
Maybe (maybe maybe) we'll be all the love under the mistletoe
Santa can you hear me
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here santa thats my only wish this year
I hope my letter reaches you in time
Bring me love can call all mine
(yeah yeah) cause I have been so good this year.
Can't be alone under the mistletoe
He's all want and a big red bow
Santa can you hear me (hear me?)
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want. just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (ohh yeah) santa thats my only wish this year
Oh santa can u hear me? oh santa
Well hes all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree
Oh I'll be waiting here
Santa thats my only wish this year.
today is super super suay... eunice was so late today... n i had to wait for her for 1 hr??!! so mood was not tat good alr n plus i was really hungry tat time as i did not hav my breakfast n lunch..
finally she came.. n we walked around.. the things tat i feel like eating, eunice dun wan. those tat she wants, i dun feel like eating.. so in the end, i gave in n went to eat pastamania..
pastmania is SO exp.. nearly $10 jus for a baked rice.. when our baked rice came, eunice's was like normal baked rice while mine is like soggy with cheese.. it was so wet n the rice is hard... it is more like porridge than baked rice... thus, i asked for a change.. but the waiter explained tat it is suppose to be like tat??!! it is not my first time eating baked rice n how come there is a diff btw eunice n mine?? anyway, they jus rebaked my bake rice.. n it is much better than initial but still cannot be defined as baked rice yet.. so this is the first suay thing..
on our way to sim lim, i realised tat some ketchup or some red sauce was on my bag n i had no idea where it came from!! i jus cleaned it off with a tissue and end of this suay thing..
walk n walk.. after a long time, eunice told me tat there are some ketchup on my shirt n my shirt is white in colour... i frantically tried to clean it off but it jus cannot be removed..
wad is the most suay thing is tat i lost the memory stick which i m supposed to return to my fren.. so i have to buy a new one n it is very exp i think.. oh god.. how suay lah..
another very suay thing is tat during my dinner at long john, the potato chips was like burnt n it was bitter!!! n inside my straw, there is this weird thing which is like a splinter from the wood.. no wonder i cannot drink the milo properly.. oh god.. wad day is it... but the day ended well, at least i got some good stuff from there.
Monday, December 22, 2008
i was getting really bored n i started to browse thru some profiles of some gals. there is this pic of wrist being slitted n cut before... so i read it.. n i find tat sth she wrote is really meaningful...
"bELIEVE tHAT eVERYHITNG hAPPENS fOR a rEASON. pEOPLE cHANGE sO tHAT tHEY cAN lEARN tO lET gO. THINGS gO wRONG sO tHAT yOU cAN aPPRECIATE tHEM wHEN tHEY aRE rIGHT. yOU bELIEVE lIES sO yOU eVENTUALLY lEARN tO tRUST oNE oNE bUT uR sELF. aND sOMETIMES gOOD tHINGS fALL aPART sO tHAT bETTER tHINGS cAN fALL tOGETHER. bE mORE cONCERNED aBOUT yOUR cHARACTER iNSTEAD oF yOUR rEPUTATION. bECAUSE yOUR cHARACTER iS wHAT yOU rEALLY aRE. bUT yOUR rEPUTATION iS wHATS oTHERS tHINK oF yOU. aND iN tHREE wORDS I sUM uP lIFE. eVERYTHING I lEARN aBOUT lIFE, iT gOES oN. eVERYTHING i lEARNED aBOUT lOVE, iT dOESNT lAST. eVERYTHING I sUM uP aBOUT pEOPLE, tHEY cHANGE fAST."
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
took cab with skye back home... as he is an ns guy, and the time and all, reminds of him again.. all the feelings jus came rushing back.. the sadness, the pain. i still do miss him. love is blind n i totally agree with it. after i realised tat he is not a good guy as i tot he was, i still loved him. n i can conclude tat he did not really love me, right from the start. everything is like a play tat has a beginning and ending. all is a pretence. just tat most endings are happy endings while mine is not.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Rihanna -Cry
I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart
[Chorus]
How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry
[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
All my life
Monday, December 15, 2008
mindchamps are having our gathering tmr.. to EXCHANGE CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!! i was quite upset at first cox i jus cannot get the present for the secret person( i m not suppose to say now).. to think of it, i think it will be fun cox we will be getting surprises from someone.. think it was bo liao initially but i think maybe it is not a bad idea after all..
i m quite excited abt wad i m goin to get.. i did not make anything on my wish list so the person can get whatever he/she wants for me.. now, i regretted.. lolx.. i should wish for like a guy of my dream, the type of dogs i like, etc.. hahax.. i see how the person goin to grant my wishes.. xD. seriously, i dun need anything now so let's see wad i get tmr!!
i called several shops n they told me tat they dun hav it.. feeling quite desperate n about to give up.. i called eunice up n she commented tat it was so easy to find n she named several places which i can try.. n at last... i got it. =)
i m so glad..
Friday, December 12, 2008
i m goin to rant somemore today...
i think i hav been too free lately so i browsed thru some profiles of the people on tagged. i think tagged has more of the indecent ppl compared to friendster n facebook..
when i looked at some of the gals pics, i feel disgusted. totally disgusted. they will reveal abit here, abit there, or rather, photos tat will give the guys the wrong idea.. indeed they can show this here n there since they are really proud of their assets n their figure loh.. u can see those gals right, they are more popular among guys.. n those guys will jus drop some really indecent stuff on their tag there.. i bet they feel SO proud of their popularity n see how guys go crazy n interested in them... oh my god...
let's say if i see this gal is like quite pretty, i will went further into the pics... in my heart, i will think tat she is pretty but once i saw those bimbo pics, she ended up from a pretty gal to a bimbo.. it is from a gal's view.. but if it is from a guy's view, they will find that this gal is pretty n further browse thru the photos, they will ended up adding like she is hot, sexy, etc.. bonus remarks. anyway, though it is bimbo but it entertains me in way...i think the only reason which a gal will do such things is tat she loves the attention the guys are giving her n it is the sick guys.
it is totally "admirable" for those gals who like to take that kind of photos which like purposely show their cleavage, etc... i really admire them loh, like they are so SUPER CONFIDENT of themselves n hoping to share with the others.
one more.. it is those guys who are so zi lian abt themselves. every pic is them. most of them is act cool, act shuai, act cute, act yan dao. there is one who claimed himself tat he is the MOST HANDSOME guy in his school in his profile. oh god. n when i look into the pic, i 100% disagree..
it's ok to add pics abt themselves being taken in the most natural way but instead, acting this n tat is totally disgusting... out from the norm. n i totally dun understand y some guys like to take of their figure as well.. maybe the same reasons as the bimbo gals.
seriously, i think most of the pics can be fake. with the advanced technology n photoshop, an ugly gal can become a pretty one, figure can get better, etc..
i was thinking if let's say if a gal posts a very sexy n pretty pic of another person in a fake account, i think she will be very popular. n many guys will try to make frens n made her as a stead. den on the day the gal n the guys had to meet, she turned out to be fat n ugly.. i wonder how the guy will react.. lolx.. wad do u think? i bet the guy will curse n swear n not contact her anymore. ppl are too realistic sometimes.
